Here's part of my prayer this morning:
"please guide me in your will.
i want to do your will, but only thiiiiis much more than I really want my own way.
good thing that's enough.
may people in positions of power align themselves with you and your will
easier said then done really,
I only occasionally am able to align myself with you and I'm a grad student with little to no power.
make me the mother you woulf have me be
and if I already am, then take away the self-loathing..."
you get the idea.
God know my parenthetical thoughts too, might as well put 'em out there