I ran this morning here in St. Paul by some beautiful crop fields and really was feeling strong. I just felt like I could go forever, thinking "wow, I'm really fit". Then I turned around. Now I felt like I was a brand new runner and totally out of shape, thinking "why do I bother?'. It seems that during the first half of my run the wind was at my back and I hadn't realized it, instead choosing to attribute the ease of my run to my increased fitness level. On the second half of my run, against the wind, I began to question my strength and stamina. The reality is that I had the same level of fitness during the entire run, I just internalized the external factors. I wonder how often I do this in other areas of my life? Do I attribute God's guidance to my own intuition, do I claim my own failings as the reason someone is an asshole? Aren't both of those tendencies just another form of self-centeredness?